hay, bakit ganito na lang lagi. akala ko ok na ko, pero bakit bumabalik pa rin ako sa dati...at mas nagiging malala pa. di ko alam kung bakit pero may namumuo pa ring bitterness sa akin sa tuwing maiisip ko sila. hindi niya alam, ayaw ko talagang umattend sa debut niya noon. hindi dahil sa may kelangan akong i-accomplish sa school before mag-vacation,dahil sa nagpadala ako sa insecurities ko at mga walang kwentang bagay na di naman dapat pinoproblema. naiintindihan ko kung ano man ang nararamdaman niya ngayon, na parang binalewala ko siya at tila tinapon na lamang ang apat na taon naming pinagsamahan. guilty rin ako dahil alam kong hindi ako naging mabuting kaibigan sa kanya. wala akong konsepto ng pagpapakita ng pagmamahal at pagaalala sa isang tao. ako ay isang tahimik, blangko at tuod na tao....mistulang walang pakialam sa mundo at sa kung kaninoman. masahol. di ko alam kung bakit kinaibigan niya pa rin ako noon. un ay dahil sa siya ay isang tunay na mabait na tao.di ko na-aapreciate noon ang mga ginagawa niya para sa akin. sa naaalala ko, ang utak ko ay naka-focus lamang sa iisang bagay, at un ay ang academics. pala-aral ako noon. at minsan, kung nahihirapan siya, tumutulong ako. magkasama kami tuwing break, dismissal. pero bukod dun, ay magkahiwalay. may 2 tao sa aming klase na tunay niyang malalapit na kaibigan. ang 2 iyon ang lagi niyang kasa-kasama sa mga outing, pasyalan at kung san pa. nalulungkot ako. bakit ako ganito? masama. walang pakialam.

...it kills. but i can't really help it. to see your dreams and aspirations embodied in someone else's life is just devastating, frustrating, disappointing. be contented, you say? man, im not a hypocrite. i do like certain things and it just sucks to realize that i can't have them.

Like come on Simple Plan can't you guys be any more of an ass? "Save You" was sooooo blah. It's a pain to hear this song. Its melody is like a mix of all the cliche melodies out there. hardcore mediocre cheesy. There's nothing worth hearing with it. Well, what im saying is it's radio and tv airtime that u guys are wasting by putting out songs like that. It would probably have been better to spare that airtime to some band from god-knows-where but definitely got some pure hot raw talent that's brewing to be in the limelight soon. Well, yeah whatever it's for cancer survivors so okay get away with it. God, sell-outs.

and oh yeah, that guy from myx named chino sucks balls. BIGTIME. it is only in the Philippines where vj's are chosen by their looks and not by their personality and spontaneity. well edit to that, i don't even agree that that guy got the looks. he's just trying so hard to be cool when it's so obvious just by the way he's talking that he's reading words from a teleprompter. yeah WORDS, like random words blurted out, not even sentences! maaaaaaaan. the channel would've been better off with just iya, luis and andrei. those guys ARE vj's. they present the videos well and they do adlibs slick. haaay. too much rant for this post. end.